The Candid Thoughts of Jana
When I came out at work, everyone called me courageous for doing so. I tried to tell them that it wasn’t about fear. It was about just doing what I had to do at the time to survive and get past the uneasiness of not being able to be myself in all parts of my…
I am full of shame. Shame for my body, for being fat, and comparably unattractive. Shame for being transgender, for all the internalize transphobia I’ve bottled up. Shame for being kinky, for all the non-vanilla things I like to do that give me some sort of sexual gratification. Shame for having gotten suckered into a…
At what point do I give up? Is it when the state I live in outlaws body autonomy for women? Is it when the country I live in values religious freedom over my rights to exist and be treated equally? Is it when I can no longer advance in my career because now I’m not…
I have reached the point in my career where I want to move into a pure management position. That’s not to say I don’t want to write code anymore, or won’t, but that I want my daily activity now to be managing a development team. Part of the reason is that I have simply lost…
I love books. I have loved them since I was a child. They have taken me to the most wonderful lands and introduced me to the most amazing and diverse people–lands and people far more interesting and deep than those I knew in real life. After all these years, I am now even writing my…
What is it about being transgender that scares people so much? There are so many groups out there that hate and fear our very existence, as if we upset some cosmic balance and the universe will implode if we continue to exist. Most of the arguments against us follow along the same lines as historical…
To ring in the new year, I thought I’d tell you more about my core value and philosophy. They are really quite simple when boiled down: Fairness and Happiness. Of course, those two words mask a lot of meaning, so let me break down what they mean to me. Fairness This is my version of…